Yes I know I'm not (f)at but I HAVE fat. This year I've gained close to 20 pounds from my lowest and I just feel really shit about it. Starting: 5'6 136 pounds
F/28/5'5", 136-142 (?) lbs. Battled with anorexia in early 20s, gained excessive weight in recovery, only stemmed the tide in last year, but very self conscious about the big flabby thighs and butt. Still dealing with body dysmorphia and anxiety-driven sk
